April 1 15
I pulled this one out of my positive jar this morning…..
Don’t believe everything you think!
Oh boy for those of us that over think things and tend to analyze……this could prove to be challenging. Sometimes my mind goes off on tangents and it’s hard to real it back in. For instance I am working on my book, attempting to describe some not so great events from my childhood…..yikes….it’s so hard to put into words the feelings that I repressed for over half of my life. Don’t get me wrong …..My childhood was filled with tons of good memories….its the bad ones that made me who I am today. If you believe the statement that LIFE IS LIKE PHOTOGRAPHY ….YOU DEVELOP FROM THE NEGATIVES (like I do) then you’ll understand that I probably would not be the person I am today if I didn’t go through what I did. That sounds so cliche….but for me looking at my life I need to make sense of it and this is one way I do it.
Processing through memories, life events and the reason for things makes me crazy sometimes…As I move forward onto this BOOK journey I will think of it as being more reflective.
Being grateful for the joys in my life……..
One of the greatest joys in my life was giving birth to my son….who will be 33 this weekend. April 5, 1992…a day I will always remember!!! I wrote about dreams coming true before because they do…..My son is one of the loves of my life. I still tear up when I write about him being born. I’m sure many mothers can identify with that. I secretly was wishing for a boy. But of course didnt verbalize it because I would jinx it. SO 33 years ago NOT KNOWING the sex before birth ( weird right? everybody knows now) I was beyond ecstatic when they held him up in the operating room for me to see. I was in love instantly and still am. So watching him now as a father himself and he too just had a son is beyond my wildest dreams. Now I have another love in my life. I am so proud of the man you are Joe and so proud to be your Mom!
I think I’ll reflect on that 🙂